Just to be honest...

I hesitate to post this because I don't want to sound like I am complaining. But I also don't want to be fake and act like everything is wonderful all the time. To say that this is all easy would be a lie. There are some beautiful, wonderful parts and there are some very hard parts too.

Evie still has a fever and yucky diapers. She has been mostly upset today. If we could have just hung around our room, I think she would have been much happier. It's so hard to know how to comfort her or to even understand why she is crying. We had to go back to the civil affairs office and she did not like that! She cried most of the time. We had to take a picture with her and Matt and I. It should be an interesting picture. She was screaming and we were frazzled. After the civil affairs building, we went to a grocery store that was in a really nice, large mall. Evie pretty much screamed through the whole store. Poor girl. She is just scared and doesn't trust us yet. We got plenty of questioning looks! We did just find out that she takes a bottle. She drank out of a regular cup this morning, but we can tell that she normally takes a bottle. She didn't eat much yesterday, but she ate a ton for breakfast this morning!

Emma is doing fine, but she has also been struggling. She got very scared in the place where we got Evie and Matt had to take her out of the room to calm her down. And this morning when we were leaving, she begged not to go. She fell asleep on the bus I think just to shut down and forget it all. She also came into our room a couple of times last night and said she was scared to sleep alone. She has never said that before.

I would describe Callie as very tired and emotionally fragile. She will cry at the drop of a hat. But I know she is super tired and trying to deal with her own emotions. She is eating a little better than when we were here last time, but still is not eating great. She is very excited to be a big sister again though and wants to be involved and helpful.

Sydney just mostly wants to be helpful all the time. I know she is tired and stressed as well, but is doing pretty well. She has had a cough since we have been here that just won't go away.

There are also a couple of adoptive moms with our group that have had a stomach bug. Praying for them and for protection over the rest of us that we don't get it.

I honestly don't want to sound negative, be also want to be real and honest so people know how to pray. We would covet your prayers for strength and wisdom and patience and understanding.

Hungry and tired!